In the time between

Things are.. stable. Depressing, heartbreaking, fatiguing, but stable. Not only is my sister expecting, but so is my psychiatrist. I know I shouldn't care  about that. I swear I know that. But my OCD won't believe me.  My "kid thing" shouldn't make me pause, eyeing the one qualified psychiatrist I've ever had  and wonder if … Continue reading In the time between


Yellow Room

The first room to the right of the stairs used to be my room. Before we got older and would fight constantly, it was mine and my sister's room. It was yellow with green squares on one section of wall, we never finished it. When it was my own, we painted it a coastal blue. … Continue reading Yellow Room

Efficacy of pharmaceutical drugs/[pot

Prozac, Zoloft, Abilify, Tegretol, Lexapro, Paxil, Fluoxetine, Cymbalta, Risperdal, Xanax. Xanax has caused me so many fucking problems. In a psychiatric hospital, a trained mental health nurse, whatever they call them, stopped me cold turkey on my Zoloft. Prescribed by my doctor and confirmed by my parents that I had been taking it for over … Continue reading Efficacy of pharmaceutical drugs/[pot